Just when I thought things couldn’t get any worse, I ran into Jake. I mean it was nice of him to care but really, why him?
“I know I’m not the person you really want to see right now but please let me know if there’s anything I can do.”
“No, Jake, I-I’m fine, really.” I lied.
I wasn’t fine, especially after seeing him. He smiled and leaned in to hug me. I just went along with it.
“I know you probably hate me but I don’t care. I’m here for you Grace, always. You never left my mind since that day we broke up and I was out in the rain all alone. That was the worst day of my entire life.”
“You did that to yourself.”
I turned around and started to make my way towards the grocery store.
“I know I did but I’ve changed.”
I turned back around.
“I love you. I told you I will always love you. You were the best thing that ever happened to me.”
How did our conversation turn into this? Not this, not now. I just lost my husband for heaven’s sake. Why did he have to come along? As if he was any consolation.
“Jake what are you doing?” I asked as if I didn't already know.
“I want another chance.”
At this moment I knew what any sensible person would do; laugh in his face. However, despite what he did to me or how silly he sounded right now, he deserved my attention and so I gave it to him.
“Do you think you could do that? Do you think you could find it in you to forgive me? I know what you’re thinking but as soon as you left me I went to church. I got saved and I never wanted to leave. I don’t know why I didn't do it sooner; so much weight has been lifted from my shoulders.”
“That’s great and I'm happy for you. Nevertheless, I just lost someone very special to me and I'm not ready to get back out there yet. Not any time soon.”
Once again, I started walking towards the store.
“Please! Please Grace, please!” He yelled.
When I turned around I could have sworn I saw tears welling up in his eye but he didn’t let it fall.
“Just one more chance, I swear if I screw up this time I'll be out of your life forever. Please.”
“I can’t bear to be hurt again.”
“I won’t hurt you! I promise I'll never leave you or lie to you ever again if you just give it a try.”
The tear fell. He quickly wiped it away. It didn't matter because I had plenty of tears to match him; he had me crying by now.
“Come on, the man is begging. Just give him a chance or you might miss out on something great.” A passing-by customer said to me.
“Okay.” I told him and his face lit up.
He picked me up and swung me around holding me so close that I could barely breathe.
“I love you!”
He set me down and kissed me and it was then that I realized I never really stopped loving my first love.
- Ten Years Later -
I love dinner time. It’s so old fashioned but who doesn’t love the chance to talk to your family. I love my family, I love Jake and I love my baby girls. The girls are now three and a half years old and are extremely smart. They get that from Jake. He has always been a smart guy.
“Ok, who wants broccoli!” He said.
They all said, “Eww…”
They hated it but which kid doesn't.
That night Jake and I lay in bed talking. We talked about everything from our past. You would think after all the time we had been together we would have talked about everything already. However, it would take longer than a lifetime to explain all the feelings and emotions we had ever felt. Then we got onto a painful subject I was praying with all my might that we would stay away from; death. I hated the subject but I loved the fact that if it was ever on my mind I could talk to Jake about it. However, we never talked about Alex. Jake knew better than to bring him up. I missed Alex a lot. I still can't believe he's gone but I'm happy with Jake and I think Alex would be happy for me too. I thought my life was over when Alex died but that’s what I thought when I first left Jake too. It seems that every time something good in my life falls apart, it’s because something better can fall together. God really does work in mysterious ways.
By brittany-I've post it already . Brittny :)